so, there's this idea out there (where? not sure) that says if you put energy into something, be it negative or positive, that energy comes back to you. for instance...instead of being "against war" (so your focus is on the war part), it's better to be "for peace", so that your focus is on peace, and that's the energy that comes to you. i really need to get my head wrapped around this way of thinking and being. i don't want all of this negative energy sucking up my life.
i am a step...step-mom, step-wife...and in that role, i find a lot of influences outside my range of control interfering in what i would like to have happening in my life. these influences intrude on my time, my feelings, my thoughts...but most of all, my energy. the influences that have been brought into my life are not what i consider entirely positive. i guess, in reflecting on the idea i wrote about above, that i've allowed these things to focus my energy on things i do not want, instead of things i do want sometimes. so...i have to adjust my thinking...my flow of energy. that's hard. i'm trying. i spend a lot of time trying. exhausting...
well...that's it. done ranting for now. peace out.
